Friday, April 20, 2007

motivation... it's a losing battle

so it is under a week before my academic obligations are complete or at least until i decide i need to go back to school for another degree. and why is it the closer i get to an ultimate goal the less motivation i feel to finish? shouldn't it be the other way around? i gain more speed towards the end like the full out sprint after a hard run. when i run and sprint to the imaginary finish line i always feel like i have accomplished something like i am my own champion but why oh why can i not translate that into my non-exercise life? hmmm... why do i ask so many questions?

i have four days left of classes and internship. within those four days i have numerous papers and a couple presentations. i know i could always "wing it" and see how the chips fall but honestly that is not how i like to roll in general. i have been blessed, or cursed, with the oldest child syndrome of always needing to feel in control and prepared for all situations. most days i feel this little aspect of my personality is a curse but i am sure somewhere i can find blessings. so i guess the moral of the story is i need to suck it up and get it done.

so be thinking of me as you go about your beautiful saturday enjoying the outside, the naps, the sleep in time, the lazy weekend for i will be slaving away at another, and might i add final, scholarly paper. a paper i could have done a month ago but have decided to procrastinate until the almost last minute. gotta love it!!

oh the joys of academia.
blessings...

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I didn't read your blog. In fact, I mostly cannot read. Someone is writing this for me right now.....Anywho, the mamma in that picture is HOTTT!!!